18. One step at a time

i was listening to some songs and all the thought came into my mind. i realise that i can no longer stop loving you anymore. i've never know that i could change into such a better person for someone. until i met you. i found my love and i felt the love. im always smiling without me even noticing but when i do, i found that you're the reason i smile. you fill my life with sweetness and happiness which makes me wanna make this relationship work out. im serious about making this relationship work. if you were to say this is love, please allow me to say, i rely on you, i love this dependence and i can let go no more. but im afraid, afraid that what if one day you have to leave. i did think about being more independent so that even if one day you were to leave, i can still smile and move on my life, yet your love is so hard for me to let go. your love has already been part of my life. even knowing that i can never be dependent on myself anymore, will you still be able to love me the way i am. even if it means that in future, there will be more sadness moment than happy moment, will you still love me the way i am? i just wanna tell you, i dont wanna quit loving you, because i love you, because i hate to see you leave and because i cant let go anymore. do you know? can i jus be selfish this one time?

signing off
baby\ting
29 September 2oo9 - o519am

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